I throw a little happy party last night at home to celebrate how proud with all are of our little Emiri chan and how much we all care for her. From left Erica Angyal, she has been supervising Emiri diet since she placed as a finalist end of 2008. then helped her keep her weight on and feel healthy and powerful even though her training has been quite brutal with so much exercise for a month. Erica sold over 250,000 copies of her new book in a month after publishing! Amazing. Go buy her book if you have not yet done so! Tina Lutter in pink. She joined us In Bahamas to cheer on Emiri. Uzi Kakuda, trained Emiri for interview together with Hiroko. he is also the ones behind the videos on MUJTV.COM Maria Hietanen has helped me fit Emiri’s wardrobe for Miss Universe. Maria designs the Maria H. beautiful swimsuits that Emiri took with her at Miss Universe. After picking up my little boys at school, I drove back home and prepared diner. Then everyone arrived at 8 pm. We eat and we had so much to catch up with that we spoke until midnight. It was Emiri’s party and we were all so happy to get to spend time with Emiri because lately she has been so busy shootings, events to attend and lots of TV shooting. We did not have really the opportunity to really discuss in details about the Bahamas as we have been s busy after returning to Japan. We spoke about the TV program aired on Sunday on NTV and in fact we realized that none of us had watched it except Uzi. I am too scared to watch any program about me… scary.. They always make me look like a cruel woman with no heart. I feel depressed every time after watching any of these programs and I end up kicking my furniture, seriously!! Every time my team negotiate with the producers to please show who I really am instead of trying hard to create a buzz and use me in a dramatic way. But every time I am betrayed, over and over…. televisions want drama-reality-shows and they they only show when I am upset with a girl, or at someone but never when I cuddle, laugh, kiss and cook food for everyone. I guess it is what sells, but how sad is this? I wish what would sell would be to show me as a good-heart person. Why is this? Does that mean people wants to see others suffer? I am puzzled… Every time I think that the editors will be responsible and show a message of hope and love throughout my work, but every time i feel sad and betrayed. I Have been terribly bullied when I was in my teens and suffered a great deal about of it, also I always make a point to make sure nobody will be bullied or hurt by other girls during the time they work with me. When you saw me being mad at a girl and she cries it is because i want her to push her limits and to do good. japanese girls have a hard time to believe that they can be number one and often they mentally withdraw from the competition because they assume that they cannot win. I push them to prove them wrong. Hiroko and Emiri were talking yesterday about how amazing they could reach the point when both of them believed so much in themselves that they could not even imagine they would not be called in the top 15. When you know, leave or work with Japanese girls, you can appreciate how spectacular this is. And this is the one part of my work that I cherish the most. Personal self-believe, nothing is impossible, I will make it not because I deseve it but because I am prepared, because I worked hard. This is what they think when comeptiting each year at Miss Universe.. Clearly the message that televisions give in Japan abut my work is not right. It is not about me, but about the consequences that it might end-up having among young women. I am trying to give a possible message to women in Japan and Sincerely every-time I go shopping or when I walk in the streets of Tokyo, women come to me and tell me, they are happy to see me, they tell me that they bought my books, that i changed their life, they feel much more confident and happy about themselves and that is the true engine behind my work, and clearly not the other way around. i mean, if I was to watch those programs about me, I would never dare to apply to the competition. I would be scared to death to meet..me! I guess I should hire someone to film me always and put it uncut version on the internet, this way people would see who I truly am. A loving person, a good friend and a caring mom, someone who can give so much to people instead of this commercial version of “The Devil Wears Prada” that TV producers are creating about me! Last night we spoke a lot together with Emiri and Hiroko and they see it as unjust as well. The way that the program ended on Sunday I heard was totally scary. I was portrayed as a monster, being upset when Emiri was not called into the top 15. The cameraman was behind me and shooting the all time… do you really think I want that?! No! I have no privacy in my life most of the time because i chose to be transparent in my work, so that people can learn from it. My mistake… I have to do it because it is my job… Let me clarify for those who saw the program…. I ran out of the auditorium as they show on TV for a good reason, not because i was upset with the outcome but because I was very sad for Emiri and I ran to meet with Emiri’s father outside as I saw him leaving the room before me. I followed him and met him waiting outside the backstage outside the auditorium. He was waiting to comfort his daughter. I ran to meet him and I cried and we hugged. He did not want to show me that he was sad and he smiled to me. I told him looking straight into his eyes: -”Otosan (Papa), it is okay to be sad, I am terribly sad for Emiri, it is my fault. Something I did went wrong. She is amazing, she did everything perfectly, also if she is not in the final tonight it is totally because of me. I am proud of her, and I care for her so much, you know correct?” And he said -”of course yes I know!”. We tried to have her see us so that we could hug her but the security told us that she was to go out again on the stage and that we had to leave. Then I went to my room and I watched the rest of the show on TV with all my friends who ran to join me. We all watched the rest of the show together and we celebrated Venezuela’s win. Then I changed quickly to go meet Emiri in her room because we had told each others that right after the show had ended, whatever the results would be, that we would meet in her room. I took the elevator and made my way to her bedroom. Then I realized that the TV and photographers were following me. I made me feel uncomfortable but…. Then Emiri opened her door and we hugged and kissed. Apparently the TV did not show this at all. She kept saying -” I am sorry Ines, so sorry…” and I was wiping her tears and telling her that it did not matter, that she did great and that I knew she had done everything perfectly. That Japanese people love her and that she will be celebrated anyway by her country when she comes back. She was worried about this. Then, we went inside her room, closed the door and we spoke just the 2 of us privately, lying down on her bed for 30 mn. Then we let the TV and the cameramen come in, they shot this part as well, this nice moment of us together just talking, but again, where did this part went??!! Emiri did a quick interview with the press while I chose clothes in her closet, for her to wear to go to the after party and to also meet all her friends from Japan, about 25 of them came to the Bahamas to support her and she had not yet even seen them!! Also I wanted her to meet her parents. We made our way down to the lobby and met everyone, our team, then we went to the party holding hands and we met Osmel Souza in the hallway, as I said before we hugged and he invited us to join his private celebration party. Still with Emiri we went and danced and tried to forget about the tears. Emiri was okay because she knew I was okay. Then she left to meet her friends at the Miss Universe Official After-Party and I asked my friend to bodyguard her. People were stopping her everywhere and asking to take pictures with her. We said that we would have breakfast the next morning and we did. She was beautiful and rested. We eat together and we spoke about packing her 7 suitcases, also about the dinner that night that she had to attend for a Japanese group of people who wanted to host a party at Nobu for her. I had to leave at lunch for Miami to have some press interviews with Nicolas Felizola who designed her gown. People from the office stayed with her until she departs Nassau. This is what happened behind the scenes in Bahamas the last night. I am invited to be a guest on 5 different national televisions since I came back I was told by my office. (NHK, TBS, 2 with NTV and also Fuji). I hope that this time it will be okay….. also shooting a 13 pages story with 25 ans magazine together with Emiri and a Takarazuka celebrity. Every morning after dropping my boys at school, I go to the gym for 2 hours with personal trainer, also class of Pilate, Aerobics and Yoga because I have a special project about health, beauty and fitness and I must transform my body before the winter. Gambaremasu! Emiri was shooting TV yesterday for TBC Esthetic Salon. Today she is shooting again for another TV program. You will see her every where soon. She also shot twice for JJ magazine this week. We will be working together soon with Hiroko for Vantan, the chain of schools in Japan. Hiroko is busy shooting for her TV program and guest speaker at regular events in Japan. We are all busy, busy….. My boys are arriving home, time for a movie together before dinner time! Love you all, dearly. Ines ps: Just saw your comment Which (username) on my previous post, I guess this will answer it all. I respect your opinion, I just feel sad.