To all of you who wrote me a happy birthday on my blog, thank you SOOOOO much! I will post some pictures later on. Also about the silly news regarding a video and Hiroko, it is definitely not her. This is false. We went shopping together with Hiroko today and we spoke about this nonsense, it is ridiculous and false news…. we bought by the way lots of nice dresses for an event together sometimes soon. Hiroko’s mom and my parents are here and we went for diner all together tonight at a shabu shabu restaurant…. one of my favorites! i am the birthday girl also I got to pick the place. From Yukie Submitted on 2009/11/16 at 7:01pm Dear Ines, Hello,I am a housewife who has 1 year old girl.I love her very much but i have a problem myself. Sometimes i got cross with her. Yesterday when I put news paper on the shelves,she took it on her hand and then I hit her. i know it was very bad thing,then I cried and apologized her. I go to counseling now and she told me it was trauma from my father. My mother dead when I was 12 years old. My father took care of me like mother but he always hit me even if I didn’t do any bad things. Then I could’nt say my opinion to my father. I had to stay good girl ,I couldn’t cry even if I missed my mother… I want to stay with my daughter without any violence. Ines,do you have any recommend? I appreciate if you reply to me. Thank you very much for reading. Yukie my reply: Yukie, please don’t harm your daughter…… I understand what you feel when you do it, or when you did it because it happened to one of my friend and she explained to me. The best is that each time you feel anger toward her, just think she is you and you want to protect her. She is a little girl, you will damage her the same way that your father damaged you at the end. YOU are the only one who can protect her from this difficult world that we live in. Please help her to feel happy, give her immense love. This will be your therapy. Also, keep seeing your specialist and get your anger and frustration out of yourself. It helps a lot. You will feel better when you will get the little girl who is inside of you to stop crying. Which means that you must make yourself happy so that you little girl will be happy with you and because of you. Take vitamins, cod liver oil and magnesium each day. Magnesium will help with your mental stress. Ask your doctor or a pharmacist about the dosage. Search for other mothers personal story like yours on internet and learn how they overcame their anger. Good luck and forgive your dad because living with anger is very unhealthy dear. And, love your little one unconditionally. Have good sleep patterns it is important to be emotionally stable. Feel my voice when you feel sad and irritated. When you feel you want to hit her, hug her instead and give her a huge kiss on her head with your eyes closed, and think about something really nice. I hope it will help, it helped my friend and she is now happy and stable. one step at a time, but keep climbing the staircase to happiness…. Love you and your little one, ines FROM ayami Hello, Ines. May I ask you a question? I am really fan of yours. I read some books which were written by you, and, in one of those books, it says that you are going to move to Hawaii within some years. Is that true? The bottom line is that I don’t want you to leave Japan. I want you to stay in Japan more. In fact, I want to be a Miss Universe near the future. Therefore, I want to learn a lot of things (about Miss Universe ,beauty, behavior and mind…more etc..) from you. I am going to try to MUJ next year. Besides, there are many people who are affected by you. So, please stay more! I am sorry about tell you my intimate affairs and my poor English. Love, ayami MY ANSWER: Ayami, hello! I have a good news… I am in the process of producing a series of DVD to be sold on TV early next year. Right now we are doing a lot of filming, witting scenes and content. It is really exciting and I am very busy doing this right now. The DVDs will show my entire training Beauty IN and OUT. In Japanese and English. Wait a little bit more…. and pls welcome to MUJ next year. I wait for you! i will stay in Japan for many more years, do not worry about it! love, ines